Never did I think I would doubt my healing. And it happened. For the smallest moment, but it still happened. 1:28 a.m. I was on the bathroom floor trembling from the battle of fighting off an anxiety attack. It was hour three. I knew I shouldn’t have had…
Category: healing
To Choose Joy
It happened. I knew it was going to come – I knew right after I realized I was healed. I knew that there were going to be moments where I had to take a breath and choose joy. To choose not to open the door and fall into the pit of depression again. …
In That Moment
“Your praise will ever be on my lips” And in that moment, I knew. I flashed back to when I was before the church stage forcing the powerful words out of my lips. Tears streaming, body shaking, forcing my heart to exclaim, “Despite the depression, Lord, I will praise you.” I thought back…
To Be Understood
I wish you could understand. I wish I had the words to explain to you what its like. I wish it was a burden only I had to bear. I wish I could tell you how it’s not just butterflies. Its not just a jittery feeling that eventually goes away. It’s not just…
The Gardner & Healer
Healing. Isn’t that what we all say we want? I have hit my knees begging God to heal me of depression and anxiety. But only recently have I learned what that actually means. I just want the quick fix – the magical removal of my struggles. I want to pray a prayer and have all anxiety…